SMILE SOMEBODY LOVES YOU... IF THERE REALLY IS NO ONE WHO EVEN GIVES A DAMN.. I HAVE ENOUGH LOVE TO SHARE WITH OTHERS..ERMM NON IN THE SEXUAL SENSE..

 I MEANT THAT I CARE ABOUT EVERYONE PEOPLE IN THE STREET I DONT KNOW, I WOULD HELP, SOME POOR GUY WAS IN THE HOSPITAL I HAD AN OPERATION IN, WAS SITTING OUTSIDE ON THE CHAIRS , BLESS HIM HE LOOKED PALE AND THIN, HE ASKED ME " DO YOU HAVE A SPARE CIGARETTE?.. I REPLIED "SURE HUN, HERE YA GO" hAVE YOU BEEN IN HERE LONG I ASKED HE SAID STUCK SITTING IN CORRIDOR OVER NIGHT AS NO BEDS.. HE HAD NO FAMILY OR SUPPORT, I SAID " HERE U GO.. HAVE WHATS LEFT IN THIS PACKET, IVE PLENTY ON THE WARD, AND ITS NOT AS IF YOUR GOING FAR ANY TIME SOON.. I KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TO GO WITHOUT A CIGGIE, AND YOUR CRAVING JUST FOR A SMOKE"
I HANDED HIM THE PACKET, AND HE LOOKED INTO IT " OOOH , AWW NO ,,I CANT TAKE ALL THESE, ..I REPLIED , OH DONT BE SO DAFT,, THEYRE ONLY CIGARETTES, GO ON IT WOULD MAKE ME SMILE I SAID, THAT AT LEAST I HELPED SOMEONE OUT . EVEN IF HONESTLY SPEAKING GIVING YOU THAT PACKET WHEN WE ARE IN HOSPITAL.. THE NURSES WOULD GO CRAZY..SO ITS BETWEEN YOU AND ME, OK?..
IVE NOT HEAR SOMEONE SAY THIS ESP TO ME " AWW DARLIN , YOU HAVE PUT MY FAITH BACK IN HUMAN NATURE YOU HAVE.. THANKYOU VERY MUCH, IT MEANS ALOT.. I GOT EMBARRASSED FINISHED THE CIGGARETTE AND GAVE HIM A HUG AND SAID " GOD BLESS YOU HUN, YOU`LL BE OK" YOU TAKE CARE, BYEEE..
I THEN WENT BACK TO THE WARD, PACKED THE LAST OF MY STUFF..


I WAS DUE TO BE PICKED UP BY MY FAVORITE SOCIAL WORKER OF ALL TIME,, "JANINE, aka THE WICKED WITCH OUT OF OZ!! OH YES! THIS WOMAN HAD ACID FOR BLOOD, HAD A HUNCH ON HER BACK OR MORE NEARING THE RIGHT SHOULDER WHICH COULD ACCOUNT FOR ALOT OF HER EVIL WAYS..MAYBE SHE HAD AN ENORMOUS CHIP ON HER SHOULDER AND TOOK IT OUT ON ME. I DONT KNOW...SHE HATED ME..... SHE STILL IS MY ACTUAL SOCIAL WORKER ALTHOUGH SHE DOESNT WORK IN THE COMMUNITY AS SHE GOT A HIGHER JOB WHICH IS KINDA SAT BEHIND DESK, TELLING ALL WORKING SOCIAL WORKERS IN THE COMMUNITY WHAT TO DO WHEN TO DO IT AND HOW... OR HEAD WILL ROLL.. SHES A BITCH I REALLY HOPE SHE HAS A LONG LONG CLOSE RELATIONSHIP WITH HER FUCKING DESK... OOOH THE STORIES I COULD TELL ABOUT HER.. ONE INSTANCE: PICTURE THIS... IM LAYING AWKWARD ON MY BED, AND MY RIGHT SIDE NOT MOVING... NEEDED HELP I HAD A STROKE.. 1 1/2 HOURS IT TOOK TO GET INTO THE PROPERTY... AMBULANCE, POLICE MY COMMUNITY NURSE ... AND JUST MY FRIGGIN LUCK THE WICKED WITCH TURNED UP ALSO...


THEY GET THROUGH FLAT DOOR PARAMEDICS COME IN THEN I SEE THEM TURNING AROUND AND BEING USHERED OUT.. IT WAS THE WICKED WITCH, SHE TOLD THEM I WAS LOOPY AND SEEKING ATTENTION FOR FUCKS SAKE.. SO SHE TOLD THEM TO LEAVE!!! WTF?? SO IM LEFT WITH MY NURSE AND THE WITCH.. ALL MY RIGHT SIDE HAD GONE, NOTHING... MY NURSE SAID TO ME THAT THE AMBULANCE CREW SAID// LISTEN TO THIS " I WOULD BE IN HOSPITAL QUICKER AND PROCESSED TO A BED... IF THEY LEFT THE SCENE, AND THAT MY NURSE WHO WAS SAYING ALL THIS TO ME.. WAS TO RING THE DOCTORS ON CALL FROM MY SURGERY. TO COME TAKE A LOOK AT ME, AND WRITE A LETTER, OK I SAID OK.. USE MY PHONE.. AND CALL IM JUST LAYING HER FEELING LIKE A LIMP KIPPER DRIBBLING RIGHT SIDE OF MOUTH.. WITHIN ABOUT AN HOUR THE DOCTOR TURNED UP.. IT WAS DR OSBOURNE  A GOOD MAN BEEN IN THE BUSINESS OVER 40 YRS.. AND THE KINDA DOCTOR WHO DOES NOT PUT UP WITH PLAYERS AND USERS OF THE SYSTEM, HE HELPED ME UP.. HE WAS A BIG MAN LARGE FRAME .. HE HAD ME SAT UP IN BED, THOUGH RIGHT SIDE OF BODY GAVE NO SUPPORT, HE ASKED ME "TAKE YOUR RIGHT HAND AND TOUCH YOUR NOSE WITH YOUR FINGER" OK I THOUGHT.. BUT MY ARM WAS DEAD ALMOST, I EVEN TRIED TO GET IT IN THE RIGHT POSITION TO MOVE UP WITH LEFT ARM, INSTEAD OF GOING INWARD AND UPWARD, IT KINDA FELL SIDEWAYS.. I SAID SORRY TO HIM.. I SAID I TRY AGAIN. BUT IHAD NO CONTROL OVER
 MY ARM FINGERS..NOTHING.. HE SAID
" LEONA..."
"I THINK U HAVE HAD A STROKE"        .......





OMG EMBARRASSING MOMENT I OF COURSE READ IT ALL THE WRONG WAY.. AND REPLIED " OH NO... NO ONE HAS STROKED ME TODAY OR ANY DAY"




HE SAID "NO A STROKE, YOUR SLURRING
AND LOOKS LIKE YOUR RIGHT SIDE
HAS GONE AWAY ON
HOLIDAY WITHOUT
 INFORMING YOU... "







OK..I THOUGHT.. AND WITTY HUMOUR ALWAYS MAKES ME SMILE EVEN IF IT HAD TO BE A WONKY LOOKING ONE.. HE TALKED TO THE WICKED WITCH AND MY NURSE WROTE A LETTER AND TOLD TO CALL FOR AN AMBULANCE AS SOON AS POSSIBLE..( JEEEEZ THERE WAS A FRIGGIN AMBULANCE HERE OVER 2 HRS AGO!!).. SO THE WICKED WITCH PHONE FOR AN AMBULANCE ... THE TIME NOW WAS 1PM SO THERE I LAY SLUMPED ON MY BAD SIDE, IN MY BEDROOM.. AND WICKED WITCH AND NURSE CHATTING IN LOUNGE IN MY FLAT... HOUR WENT PASSED... WHERES THE AMBULANCE???? I SHOUTED TO MY NURSE WHERE ARE THEY .. OH THEY SAID THEY BE WITHIN THE HOUR, I ASKED IF I CUD HAVE A DRINK AND THE WICKED WITCH MADE ME ONE OF HER BREWS...YES,, WITH MY TEA BAGS AND MY KETTLE AND MY MILK.. SHE MADE SURE IT WAS A CUP OF TEA I WUD RATHER FORGET ABOUT AS IT WAS THAT BAD/// SO I LAY THERE, TIME WENT ON.. I HEARD THEM CHATTING IN THE LOUNGE , OH THEY HAD TURNED THE TV ON AND I HEARD THE KETTLE GOING T.SO THEY WERE MAKING THEMSELVES COMFORTABLE IN MY HOME... I SO WANTED A DRINK,, BUT NOT THE SAME CUP THE WITCH MADE FIRST TIME ROUND....
ELEVEN IN THE MORNING THE PARAMEDICS ARRIVED ONLY TOLD TO LEAVE BY THE WICKED WITCH. STUPID HORRIBLE HORRIBLE WOMAN.. DOCTOR CAME BY ONE O`CLOCK AFTERNOON...

tick tock tick tock... I had a DEADLine to meet... How long does it take for a NHS Ambulance to arrive at the scene when its an emergency?? Dial 999 ..

I kept saying,"When are they going to be here???

IN THE END I HAD TO WAIT TILL NINE O`CLOCK AT NIGHT BEFORE THE AMBULANCE TURNED UP. AS SOON AS THEY DID MY VITALS.. AND I WAS GETTING WORSE OVER TIME..THEY USED THE BLUES AND TWOS... I ENDED UP IN HOSPITAL FOR JUST OVER TWO MONTHS..




DO YOU KNOW NOT ONCE DID MY SOCIAL WORKER JANINE BARNARD aka THE WICKED WITCH OF OZ... COME VISIT ME, NOT ONCE...BUT... MY NURSE BLESS HER, ALL THE CLOTHS I WENT IN WITH WELL PJ`S I WAS WEARING WERE ALL WET AS I HAD NO CONTROL OVER MY BLADDER , SO THEY TOOK THEM ALL OFF PUT THEM INTO A BAG, AND PUT ME IN A SMOCK.. ANYWAY.. MY NURSE CAME TO SEE ME 2 TIMES A DAY SHE WOULD DRIVE TO THE AREA SHE WORKED IN AN HOUR EARLY TO VISIT AND COS SHE WAS A NURSE THEY LET HER DO SO.. SHE CAME IN ..OH IRENE  I WAS UPSET .. ALL MY PJ`S ARE WET MY BLADDER WENT SO THEY TOOK THEM OFF AND PUT THEM IN A BAG... IVE NOTHING TO WEAR ....I FEEL YUKKY... THEN I REALISED I HAD MY WALLET WITH ME... SHE FIRSTLY SAID..DONT WORRY LEONA I WILL TAKE THEM HOME AND GIVE THEM A WASH... I LOOKED AT HER..WOT??? ..THEY ARE MINGING!! OH DONT BE DAFT..IVE HAD TO WASH RUGBY CLOTHES BEFORE NOW... DONT YOU WORRY.. SO THE NEXT DAY I PUT IT TO HER... I SAID "IRENE..ERRMM SAY I NEEDED ERMMM PJ`S FOR EXAMPLE...BUT NEEDED SOMEONE TO GET THEM COS IM SYUCK IN THIS BED.. BUT THE PERSON DIDNT HAVE CASH BUT DID HAVE A CREDIT CARD...
                                                                          My Community Nurse Hehe

IF THEY LOOKED NICE AND SMILED AT THEIR COMMUNITY NURSE, DO U REAKON SHE MIGHT BEND THE RULES .. AND JUST ACCEPT THE 4 DIGIT PIN NUMBER AND GET ME A COUPLE PAIRS PJ`S FROM PEACOCKS SHOP OR STORE 21 ?? OK OK SHE REPLIED ..I CANT REALLY SAY NO NOW CAN I?.. DONT WORRY, WHAT SIZE AND TYPE U THINKIN OF ...CASUAL TOP AND PINK.. AND SO SHE TOLD ME SHE HAD TO GO AND WOULD COME BACK ON HER WAY HOME TO SEE ME. SHE SORTED NEW PJ`S AND BLESS HER DID MY WASHING EVERY OTHER DAY.... I STILL HAVE THE SAME COMMUNITY NURSE, GOD ITS BEEN OVER 10YRS I HAVE HAD HER..






AND AS FOR MY SOCIAL WORKER.. I KEEP GETTING TOLD SHE IS STILL MY SOCIAL WORKER, EVEN THOUGH SHES GOT A HIGHER POSITION IN HER CAREER AND NOW  SITS BEHIND A DESK DICTATING TO SOCIAL WORKERS IN THE COMMUNITY... I HAVE NOT SEEN HER FOR OVER FIVE YEARS.. I HAVE NO DESIRE TO SEE HER THE NEXT FIVE YEARS TO COME EITHER... SHE DID SICK COLD AND PUT MY LIFE IN JEOPARDY.
                                                                               My Social Worker

EVEN THEN, IF IT HAD
NOT BEEN OUTSIDE FORCES GETTING INVOLVED, I DONT THINK I WOULD BE HERE TODAY... ANYWAY... AS EVERYONE IN THE UK KNOWS...NHS CUTS HAVE AFFECTED EVERYONE IN NUMEROUS WAYS.. CUTBACKS ON MENTAL HEALTH COMMUNITY CAREHAS BEEN CUT BACK BIG TIME.. AND WE DONT GET THE CARE, LIKE THE CARE I HAD SAY FOR EXAMPLE.. 1994 MY COMMUNITY CARE COULDNT HAVE BEEN BETTER .. I HAD A SUPPORT WORKER TWICE A WEEK, I HAD A NURSE ONCE A WEEK AND A SOCIAL WORKER ONCE A WEEK.

NOW I GET A COMMUNITY NURSE EVERY TWO WEEKS AND A SUPPORT WORKER EVERY TWO WEEKS. ...
SO HERE IT IS ITS CALLED
20 Commandments for Mental Health workers

1 Thou shalt respect your patient and not judge
2 Thou shalt increase the well-being, opportunities and happiness of your patient
3 Thou shalt be in time for appointments and phone calls. It will show your patients that they matter
4 Thou shalt have a well-chosen and well-timed sense of humour
5 Thou shalt reconsider your ‘professional distance’ if it makes your patient feel he stands alone; show that you are a person too
6 Thou shalt not let your bad mood or personal issues influence your professional attitude
7 Thou shalt have an open conversation if your patient is suicidal and give good support and protection if necessary
8 Thou shalt not hide behind a newspaper on the ward or make any other unapproachable impression otherwise
9 Thou shalt not hide and chat in the nurses’ offices but be with your patients as much as possible to create a safe and friendly    environment 
10 Thou shalt consider family and good friends of your patient as team players (unless it’s impossible) and support them well in the      interests of your patient
11 Thou shalt inspire and support your colleagues to make mental healthcare as good and friendly as possible and ask and give feedback     on a regular basis to become a ‘winning team’
12 Thou shalt inform your patient well about side effects of medication, observe well and help to find solutions if needed
13 Thou shalt not avoid the subject ‘sexual side effects of medication’
14 Thou shalt help your patient to get good dental and physical care and support them on doctor and dentist visits if needed
15 Thou shalt help and support your patient to exercise on a regular basis to increase their health and give support to decrease smoking.
16 Thou shalt support your patient to overcome financial or housing problems and fight bureaucracy
17 Thou shalt listen well to the patients' aspirations for their life and give support to achieve them
18 Thou shalt stand up for the rights of your patient
19 Thou shalt fight the stigma of mental illness at every opportunity
20 Thou shalt help your patient to keep up hope